For whatever you are going through today, whatever makes you say, “I can’t _____.”
Know that you are right. You can’t.
You can’t stop thinking about your weight. You can’t just “know” that you are beautiful. You can’t stop sleeping with your boyfriend. You can’t stop watching pornography. You…
Proverbs 18:9 One who is slack in his work, is brother to one who destroys. Laziness equates with malice when the results are the same. Honestly there is no difference if the wrong is accomplished by omission or commission. Except I would go so far as to say that omission is more harmful to the self… As this is an instance of cowardice that leaves the question of “what if” hanging in your mind. And that’s just it, it hangs there, taunting you. At least when your purposely doing something you can recognize and own up to it. When you omit it’s not that you can identify what you did wrong exactly but you know for sure you didn’t do right. To me that almost feels worse.
Go to a church in Canada, the Dominican Republic, Holland, or anywhere else in the world and one thing remains the same. Hallelujah. You may not follow everything or even anything that is said but one word, hallelujah. Let praise be given. It’s a connection for all Christians; showing that we all understand that praise needs to be given to Him that makes life possible.
XXI century drug
so. my own personal addiction was getting a little out of hand and I decided to take an extended fast. I just needed a breather and some time to get myself sorted out. There are a lot of reasons really and I’m not even sure anyone reading this will even care but here are the two biggest ones:
1. Facebook is a HUGE waste of time. I would find myself on facebook for like an hour or so and then immediately after I close the browser I have no idea what I’ve been doing for the last hour of my life. It’s just that time is such a precious thing that it shouldn’t be squandered.
2. It just seems to me that facebook is all about creating a version of yourself, that may or may not be a full representation of you (depending on how much you fabricate), just for people to judge or admire. But there always is that underlying goal of seeking other’s approval. You post things in the hopes of it being liked or getting positive feedback on it, and to be honest I’ve just gotten tired of it. I need a break from this narcissistic parade. Now I know that may be a bit harsh cuz it’s really not all that bad but i exaggerate because the amount of value that’s placed on image has really been bothering me lately. And facebook has just been a fuel to the flame of my irritation and insecurities.
so that’s it and I have a time line of when I think I’ll go back on, it’s not even that long of a time but they say it only takes 21 days of giving something up for you to break the habit. And hopefully by my return date I’ll be able to deal with it all again.
So the other day a friend and I were talking and she asked me what it is that I worry about. Good question. Now I know that I’m supposed to say that worry never does anybody any good, and that for the most part it does more harm than good. I’m not necessarily disagreeing with that, it just seems that there is a notable exception to that rule. You see I worry a lot about the sort of impact I’m making on the world around me. I know what it’s like to feel alone in a crowded room and so with that I worry about the part I play in making someone else feel alone in that way. In this area I don’t think we could ever worry enough, you can’t worry too much here because this is a sort of worry that lays the foundation for something truly beautiful to be built on. A healthy, constant worry like this would make you take more notice of the person sitting alone at lunch, it would make you offer a kind word to someone who really needed it, and it would make you appreciate the times where you feel loved so much more. No kind word is ever gone to waste, even making eye contact with the person on the street could mean everything. So we need to worry more about our fellow man, worry more about the other person’s happiness or lack there of, worry about their well-being and our contributions to that. From the state of our world now with all the hurt, the lost and the hopeless; some more worry would do this world some good.
